One face in 30,000 with CF

One face in 30,000 with CF
One of the many faces of Cystic Fibrosis

Saturday, July 28, 2012

Big News

We had some big news a couple of weeks ago. We are expecting our second child around Zoey's fourth birthday. It was a big surprise. Not that we were not trying but we had been trying for quite awhile and nothing happened. I guess things just happen when they are meant to happen.

With this news brings great joy and a lot of fear. This child does have a 25% chance of having CF. Not big odds right? Well Zoey was also a 25% chance it happens. We have decided not to get prenatal testing to find out. The testing can cause a miscarriage and we have tried so hard to get pregnant we don't want to happen. And since the results will not change anything then why do it? We will just make sure to watch for the blockage that can happen during the pregnancy. I know they are so close to not a cure but to a drug that is going to change the lives of all CFers and has already changed the life of 4% of the CF world with their mutation things are looking bright. But it is still scary. And then it is scary that this child does not have CF because that is all we know. It will seem so off to me to feed a child without enzymes. LOL

I am a little scared about Zoey. She is used to having just me and I want to still give her the love and attention she needs. It is hard to imagine loving someone else as much as I love Zoey. It is amazing the capacity the heart has to love.

So that is our big news. My husband and I are excited. I don't think Zoey knows really what is going on even if I do tell her. Maybe when I start showing and she can feel the baby and see ultrasound pictures it will make more sense to her.